HOW I FEEL

HOW I FEEL


I have trouble falling asleep, I keep on thinking about you.
When I do, I dream about you- my dreams make me despise my reality, for they are filled with you……. And my reality isn’t.
When I wake up- reality just makes me wanna sleep again.
The one thing that keeps me going are your messages and longing for your calls.

All this while that I’m practically dying from being a “love-sick puppy”- you are busy being the epitome of “coolness” as if nothing is going on…….
Ever so aloof & untouched by the feelings we both radiate into the cosmos, and we can only hope the other feels it too.

Your calls are that of a cool; been-around-the-block lesbian who’s built a wall around her heart, who is just up for a good time, anytime, no-strings-attached.
Your messages, however, do hint at some vulnerability & wanting to be loved -
a person who IS emotionally present & just doesn’t wanna get hurt.

I have worn my heart on my sleeve – you know for sure how I feel.
And in keeping with that honesty trend, I shall confess to being in love with both of your personas, but I don’t know which one really personifies who you are......