reaching out

Is this the reason why u were asking whether I'd be on yesterday? This isnt just beautiful, its touching i swear i cried when i read it coz that is my reality, i wonder if its yoz too...

i have put on a mask of being this happy eternal-child.people cud neva imagine half of the things that have happened to me in my very short life-rape, abuse (in all forms), from both my parents and patners, backstabbing friends, u see having those u put yo trust in turn out to be lookin out to nake the best for themselves out of yo heartache, etc

all i ever wanted was for someone to love me for me, accept me as i am-im a very loving and caring person maybe too much so maybe that's been my down fall

I've also refused to stop believing in love-its a force too strong and important to lock outI hope yo prayer is answered and u find the beautiful soul that has the key to yo soul so that u no longer have to trudge along life without yo spirit I know that pain, for though i have tried to regain mine, it was never so fully and i lose a bit of it every tym my heart breaks the sad thing is with matters of the heart, the healing has to be internal firsbut it almost always requires for there to be a person who's willing to stick it out with u, see u thru, love u thru pain-u know love the pain away

I wish nothing less for u if this is yo reality and i hope their soul is beautiful enough to deserve yo amazing one

Terribly missing you and wishing u the best in all u do: SL