PLEDGE TO SELF 30 JUNE 2008

today I started something
some kind a change in ma life
its supposed to be one dimensional
but i thought...what the heck, ive got too many personalities for that
so i took that and added many of the things i have learnt in ma life
what i hope to gain out of this is self-peace

im sure u aint eva come across that one before
well thats simply bcoz i just made it up now as im writin this
the thing is i "self-accepted" long time ago
but i still wasnt really at peace with some things about me/in ma life/that happened/bloody blah

so today marks the beginning of some strange journey ......... that i will take
with all the weird attributes that make me ..me

i hope to lose a lot of the bad stuff... (if im still carryin it)
and to gain a lot of good from this
mostly happiness

this isnt a road to self-discovery...i know ma self too well...no really, i do, i sit down and talk with all ma personalities (quite funny and even deep conversations we have shared
:) )...............
its also not the persuit of happiness, i am a happy person, mostly because i make do with what i have. If i want something else and i can get it, thats what i do, if i cant, then i stop stressin about it cause i cnt do jack about it. Really thouugh, the key is to lear to accept and be insanely happy with what you do have

i suppose its more a path im takin where i vow to be me (all the tym ---- not most of the time), so i'll just do more of what i have already been doin
loving
forgivivg
caring
prayin
surroundin ma self with beautiful spirits
lettin go and lettin God
where i'll listen to ma self more
what ma inner being cries out for
shutting out the noise from the world
takin care of the inner me in appreciatuion for her having gotten me this fa, for her having taken care of me, we both know it wasnt easy

So that at the end of the day i am a peaceful person
even when im quiet, there's always a storm brewing underneath that calm surafce
i dnt want that

i want serenity..........thats what i hope to find

Sane, baby girl, I love you
and this is ma pledge to you to take care of you
when its all said and done
when the show is over

its just u and me......so ya thats it

im not gonna separate this ish, but have u ever bn in love by celine

Have you ever been in loveYou could touch the moonlightWhen your hearts shooting starsYoure holding heaven in your armsHave you ever been so in loveHave you ever walked on airEver felt like you were dreaminWhen you never thought it couldBut it really feels that goodHave you ever been so in loveHave you ever been in loveYou could touch the moonlightWhen your hearts shooting starYoure holding heaven in your armsHave you ever been in love, have you...The time I spentWaiting for something that was heaven-sentWhen you find it dont let go,I knowHave you ever said a prayerAnd found that it was answeredAll my hope has been restoredAnd I aint looking anymoreHave you ever been so in love, have you...Some place that you aint leavinSomewhere youre gonna stayWhen you finally found the meaninHave you ever felt this wayThe time I spentWaiting for something that was heaven-sentWhen you find it, dont let go,I know...Coz have you ever been so in love, so in loveYou could touch the moonlightYou can even reach the starsDoesnt matter near or farHave you ever been so in loveHave you ever been in loveHave you ever been in loveSo in... love...

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andf its not that i wasnt in love before its just that i keep on falolin in love again and again and again with her
its littl ethings

but they make all the difference in the world.....

IM IN LOVE

that moment when yo eyes meet again
or is the next tym u are talkin and u r just starin into their eyes
or even they are layin beside u on yo bed...then lookin into their eyes
or ur sittin all alone in some office (like i am) and thinkin of their eyes.......

maybe its yet again or for the first tym
u realise IM IN LOVE!!!!!!!!

and u wanna shout to the rest of the world, or keep it bottled up inside.........u have this stupid smile on yo face thats just plastered there and as far as you are concerned, the world couldnt be a better place

well as sick as i am, thats how i feel
I love you angeland thank you for being exactly that....my angel
ur the bestestestesteset! girlfriend